Friday, November 30, 2012

So, I am going to get a little emotional with this post, sorry in advance.  I set out one night to put some ideas out on paper and 2 days later after large amounts of caffeine very little sleep and alot of cursing I had a book finished.  I sat on this book for 6 months and finally got the nerve to open the file again and reread my words and I didn't completely hate them so I did some more work on it, 4 months later I finally got the balls to do something with it and sent it to a fellow author that I adore.  She read it and encouraged me to do something with it, she was the first person I had let read it.  I did research and eventually found an editor and someone to design the cover, my editor, bless her for not strangling me at some point, helped me with the many errors through out the book, and then told me she loved it.  She was the second person to read it, and encouraged me to go through with this plan I had on epublishing  a book I had written in 48 hours because conversations going on in my head wouldn't let me sleep.

You may be wondering what the hell I am getting at, and I do have a point in all this.  I am starting to get more and more people coming to me with comments on the ARC's I have sent out, so far so good all of them have been people who liked the book.  Now I know there will be those who hate it, or thought I should of done this or that differently  it comes with the territory of taking a chance on creativity.

Now here comes the point, if you are like me, sitting there staring at an intimidating file on a computer screen wondering should I or shouldn't I take that chance, I am encouraging you to find someone you trust to give you an honest answer and take that leap.  It is worth it, even now as I sit here day after day fighting panic attacks of that first bad review, I can say it is worth it.


Hmmm where to begin with Xavier, if you asked him he would tell you he was a egotistical, man-whore and he's the star.  He likes sex, women, getting his own way and when he doesn't he pouts.  He's taken to the rock star life with ease, and leather pants have become a staple in his closet.  He enjoys drinking beer with his band and playing Xbox in his downtime.

He's the only redhead in the group and his irish descent is clear to see with his clear emerald eyes, and at 6 feet tall is great eye candy.  He has a voice that can be a raspy croon at one minute to a ear shattering scream the next.  He enjoys strutting across stage and giving the girls a good look at the six pack and tight ass. He has a quick temper but can't stay mad for long, he's sarcastic, and a bit of an ass.

If you were to ask his band mates about him though they would say that while X is an ass he's always one of the first to be their for his friends and family.  His father died when he was 16 in a car wreck leaving his mom to take care of him and his 11 year old sister.  Xavier has done what he could help his mom and sister out, even buying his mom a house and paying for his sister to go to college.

X has always known Sam, their dads were best friends growing up, they spent many weekends out fishing and camping with their fathers when they were young.  Sam and he though friends weren't always that close, Sam didn't have many interests outside his guitar while X always had a thing for girls and getting into mischief.

When he was a freshmen in high school he met Drake and Alex and introduced them to Sam later Sam brought Seth into the group and they decided to start a band, Busted Monkey.  X loved to get up on stage and perform, he also discovered he had a knack for the singing thing.  In high school the went from girl to girl until he was around 18 and met Sabrina, he thought he was in love with her, but they decided to end things when she went away to college.

When My Misery Muse started he decided he didn't want to do anything else but sing and perform, and started writing some lyrics.  He continues to help with writing lyrics for some of the songs, but leaves alot of it to Sam and Seth.

He purchased his family home in Dallas shortly after their first album went platinum and bought his mom a smaller home close to where his sister goes to college.  He had the house revamped and a studio built in the backyard.  When they were getting ready to start recording their third album they decided to get away from the Hollywood lights and back to their roots in Dallas and record their.  They were all beginning to suffer from burnout of going three straight years of recording and touring with little to no time for a break.

Thursday, November 29, 2012


Alex is the prankster of the group, he's fun loving and always has a smile on his face.  He's also the shortest and stockiest he's 5'10 and is built from all his time behind a drum kit.  He has chocolate eyes, dark brown hair and an olive complexion from his hispanic father.  He started playing drums around the age of 11 when his father took off leaving his mom with 3 kids and no support.  His grandfather started him on the drums to help with his aggression issues.  As the baby of the family he was left alone alot of the time, his mom worked 2 jobs to help support them and his older sisters were more concerned with their only jobs and boy friends than what he did.

He started getting in trouble around the age of 12 and had his first stint in juvie at the age of 13 for fighting and shoplifting.  At the age of 14 he met Xavier, Sam and Drake in high school, they hit it off and him and Xavier instantly began a close friendship.  Seth came a long a little later, though the 2 never really got along they all enjoyed playing in their band Busted Monkey.

Through out high school Alex continued getting into fights, and found alcohol and pot as well.  He and Xavier loved to go out partying, finding girls, and just causing trouble.  At the age of 16 he went back to juvie for a possession charge that was later pleaded down to just probation with community service.

When Drake left the band during their senior year he stayed and joined My Misery Muse with Xavier, Sam and Seth.  They played local clubs around Dallas and were later signed by a label and moved to L.A.

In L.A. Alex enjoyed the party scene, and continued on with it when on tour for their first album, by the second album he was having trouble making it to the studio on time.  After the second tour wrapped the guys decided to return to Dallas to record their third album in three years, and to take time to regroup.

Wednesday, November 28, 2012


Sam grew up in the all American family, dad who worked 8-5 job, mom who stayed home with the kids, little annoying brother in a nice neighborhood.  His parents have no idea where they went wrong, Sam never wanted to do much more than play his guitar, he started at the age of 6 and never put it down.  They tried everything they could think of to get him to try other things, but nothing held any interest, if he wasn't at school or doing homework he was playing his guitar.

Sam had always been a bit shy, a bit of a recluse, and still is.  He's often with Seth working on the latest song or just messing around with his guitar, if not there he can be found in his bunk reading the latest thriller out.  He has a love of horror films and when at all possible tries to go to as many screenings of Rocky Horror Picture Show he can make.  He tried the rocker lifestyle but got bored with it quickly, he wants more of a challenge than what the groupies put up when it comes to women.  He's never been in love or really had a long lasting relationship with anyone.

Women love his blonde hair and blue eyes, hes around 6 feet tall with a panting melting grin, he loves his family and tries to keep his life as normal as possible since the band's popularity has grown.  His little brother Max hangs with him as much as possible, but hes trying to build his career as a tattoo artist.

He's known Xavier for as long as he could remember, his parents were friends of Xavier's parents, so they always spent alot of time together.  Through X he met Alex and Drake the first day of high school, the three instantly hit it off.  He met Seth later in the week, they started music, and the rest is history.

The 5 started up Busted Monkey, named by Xavier of course, and did well for a high school band playing covers, but Sam was never really fulfilled by that.  When they decided to form My Misery Muse he and Seth decided to focus on original work, and both of them began to flourish.

The business side of band was left more to him, and he found he enjoyed that aspect.  He went and found them gigs in the Dallas area eventually branching out into Louisiana, Mississippi, and New Mexico.  He finally got the band its big break by entering a contest on a local radio station, and won they a place on the first stage at Edgefest.

They eventually signed with a label and came out to L.A. to record their first album, Sam continues to help Seth write their music, and watch the bands business dealings.

Tuesday, November 27, 2012


So I gave you a short little blip about the now lets get into who they really are

Seth can be found with an instrument in his hand most of the time working out his latest riff or beat, rocking worn 501's and retro rock t shirts.  He is around 6'2 with various piercings but the ones you can see is his labret, eyebrow and tongue when he talks, but there are more hidden.  He has lots of tattoos both sleeves done,  piercing grass green eyes that are highlighted by his dark eyelashes and the kohl around his eyes he usually sports.  His hair is dark almost black and reaches his collar, he has the quintessential bad boy look down.

He can be a bit standoffish at times but at ease with the other guys in the band, hes still not sure how they made it to where they are.  His musical influences are The Misfits, New York Dolls, Chevelle, Jeff Buckley, Nirvana, The Rolling Stones and many more.  He can play the bass, guitar, drums, piano, banjo, up right bass, and violin but he prefers the bass.  He was accepted to quite a few music schools but decided to try and make it with My Misery Muse instead.

He has no real family but the band, his mother od'ed when he was 17, he went to live with Sam and his family and he never knew his father.  He took to music at a young age when his grandmother a piano teacher started him at the young age of 4, she encouraged him and helped pay for lessons on other instruments he wanted to learn, he lived with her until she died when he was 12 and was then sent to live with his drug addict mother.

At 14 he met Sam when they were freshmen in high school and Sam introduced him to Xavier, Alex and Drake, together they started a garage band Busted Monkey.  By the time they were 16, Busted Monkey, had a bit of a following and were playing house parties for some of the richer kids that went to their school, Seth was making enough money to keep himself fed and clothes on his back.  He spent most of his time at Drake's house so he could hang out with Devi, Drakes little sister who was 2 years younger.

Devi was an odd girl, she was into art and always drawing something which is what pulled Seth to her to begin with.   He knew when he was 16 that she was it for him, but with her only being 14 knew he had to bide his time.

In their senior year of high school Drake left Busted Monkey to focus on school, he was leaving to go to college the next fall to study music management   Sam, Alex, Xavier and Seth decided to create My Misery Muse leaving behind covers to focus on writing their own music.  By the following fall they hit the Dallas music scene and were beginning to play clubs through the area beginning to draw crowds and make a name for themselves.

At 19 he and Devi began their relationship, they were inseparable  she decided she wanted to be a tattoo artist and started focusing on getting out of school early and to attend art school, Seth continued with the band.

At the age of 21 My Misery Muse was offered a contract and the chance to make a CD, only problem was that they had to move to L.A.  Seth didn't want to leave Devi behind, but Devi decided he was going and ended things with him, so with nothing left to do Seth went with the band.

So far they have recorded 2 Cd's and is currently working on the third, but when things started to go south with the band they decided to go back to their roots of Dallas to work on the album.

So I thought I would tell you a little about the members of My Misery Muse...

Xavier or X as hes often called is a man whore jack ass so your typical lead singer, he likes to party, sometimes a little too much, but hes always there when you need him.  He has a bit of a temper but it fizzes out shortly after he blows up, and he knows hes the star.

Sam is a bit introverted and would rather spend his time playing his guitar than dealing with the band drama.  He is very business savvy and keeps tabs on all that's going on with the band, everyone loves him but few actual know what makes him tick, hes the illusive bad boy of the band.

Seth is the brooding, moody musical genius of the group, he can play lots of different instruments but prefers the bass and does most of the writing for the group.  He's been in love with the same girl since he was 16, but since she kicked him to the curb has become a bit of a slut.

Alex is the troublemaker of the group and has taken a little too well to the LA music scene, he's spending most of his time lately with his dealer and whatever girl he can find.  Though a terrific drummer he's starting to   have some issues with his lifestyle meshing with everyone else's.

Sunday, November 25, 2012

So I've started the second book for My Misery Muse, not sure where it will go yet, still in the early stages, but it will be about two of the characters in the first book.

Now for My Misery Muse, I am finished with the story, and am now working on formatting to get it ready for publishing.  I have also been told many times over I am my own worst critic, so I have banned myself from looking at any content, I'll let you know how that works out.

Oh also organised a giveaway for 5 free copies of My Misery Muse...starts Dec 26th and ends Jan 8th...I will give more details later.
Teaser 1:

I looked him in the eye and told him, “Seth is back.”
That’s all it took Crispin was next to me in a second. “Back, what do you mean back, and how do you know?” he asked.
“I just saw him next door and Joe’s.” 
“Oh damn,” was all he could said and that about summed it up for me as well.

Teaser 2:

“Damn it Devi, you’re the one who pushed me into going to La, you’re the one who told me we should end things.”

“You’re right I did, and we both know why. What were you going to do Seth keep the band here in Dallas and keep playing in the small clubs here? Or stand back and watch them leave for LA without you, knowing that you could have been there with them living your dream? You would have ended up hating me for that.”

Teaser 3:

...slide down his body until my feet hit the floor, still a bit the unsteady, he held on to my arm while I got my bearings back. He bent over and started kissing my neck again, slowly running his lips down, then across my collar bone. He reached his hand up and took my breast teasing the nipple with his thumb...

Hope you enjoy!

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Soooooooo here is the cover for My Misery Muse brought to you by the very talented lady at Okay Creation.

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Ok so a few minor technical issues going on with the cover, but hope to have it up very soon, but omg I had to wipe the drool off my chin when I saw it...I am a little in love with the chica at Okay for the teaser you were also promised, hope you enjoy

I walk into the café next door and am instantly greeted with the smell of fresh brewed coffee, I inhale deeply and briefly close my eyes, nothing is better than coffee from Joe’s Café.  I walk up and order Cris and my typical coffees, a mocha latte for him and a honey latte for me.  While I’m waiting for our drinks I glance around the café, some of the people I recognize from the area, others are college kids hanging around for the summer.  I pay and take our drinks when I happen to glance in the corner and almost drop the coffee.  Sitting in the corner is the last person I ever expected to see again, Seth. Damn, he looked as gorgeous as ever. I knew when standing, he topped off at 6’2, he had wide shoulders that tapered down to lean hips, his muscles were well defined but sinewy like a swimmer. His dark hair was shaggy and mussed as ever and those eyes, the eyes that have haunted me for over 2 years are the color of spring grass after a rain. He had lips that were made for sin, full, lush and I can still remember biting them. His nose had the hump in the middle from when my brother had broken it years before, and cheekbones most women would kill for, which were currently covered in a day or two’s worth of stubble.  I could still picture how his eyes darken when he’s angry or turned on; I can still remember his scent, which was all Seth, spicy and completely masculine.  He was dressed as he’d always dressed. Vintage rock t-shirt that clung to his chest, worn 501’s that molded to his ass and thighs perfectly, black work boots, his labret glinting in the light and tattoos peeking out from under his shirt sleeves.   That man could do things to me, to my body that would light me up like a firecracker, but that didn’t mean I wanted to see him again.

I’m not sure if he saw me or not and I have no intention of finding out, I hurry to the door open it and almost run back to the tattoo shop slamming the door on my way in.  I rushed in and thrust Cris’s latte at him and hightail it to the back of the shop, into the room where we keep all of our equipment and shut the door.  I have to sit down and put my head between my legs, trying to keep myself from passing out.  I hear the door open and glance up to see Cris standing there with a concerned look on his face.

“Dev what’s the matter, you look like you’ve seen a ghost?” says Cris.

With that I start laughing because it’s better than crying.
So I finally set a release date, after going back and forth with myself for awhile now on do I even want to release this book, I have decided to put it here so I can back out... again.  My Misery Muse will be released January 8th 2013 as an amazon exclusive to begin with.  I am hoping to have a cover to release soon as well as some teasers to come...
Some of my song list while writing My Misery Muse

Chevelle-Send the Pain Below
Sevendust- Bitch
Belly – Thief
Flogging Molly – Drunken Lullabies
Bob Dylan – Knockin on Heavens Door
Breaking Benjamin – I Will Not Bow
Chevelle – One Lonely Visitor
Drowning Pool – Bodies
Flogging Molly – Fuck you I’m Drunk
Hinder - Lips of an Angel
Jeff Buckley – Hallelujah
New York Dolls – Personality Crisis
Poe – Angry Johnny
Saving Abel – The Sex is Good
Seether – Fuck it
Shinedown – 45
Tantric – Mourning
Toadies – Possum Kingdom
Veruca Salt – Aurora
Hurt – Rapture
Tantric – Down and Out
Shinedown – Simple Man
Seether - Fallen
Death Cab for Cutie - The Ice is Getting Thinner

Monday, November 19, 2012

So working with an awesome editor right now to get the first book of this series published, I am hoping to get it out in early January and will hopefully have a date for you soon on that.  Also working on getting a cover ready soon...

So how about a little bit about the story...First young love gets sidetracked by dreams that take them on two different journeys, but an unknown bond brings them back together again.  Devi Porter an up-and-coming tattoo artist in Dallas is trying to live her life as best as possible, but never able to forget the love she had with Seth.  Seth a bassist for the popular band My Misery Muse is struggling with his fellow band members with the lifestyle that he now lives.  The band decides to go home to Dallas to work on their latest album as well as to work out their problems out from under the glare of the media.  Seth and Devi meet up again and both realize they have a lot to work out between themselves as well.  As they get reacquainted life and obstacles are thrown at them at them at every turn are they able to overcome them to become the family neither really had.